Change! a boon or a test!!

I went to a party Mom,
I remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom,
So I drank soda instead.
I really felt proud inside, Mom,
The way you said I would.
I didn't drink and drive, Mom,
Even though the others said I should.
I know I did the right thing, Mom,
I know you are always right.
Now the party is finally ending, Mom,
As everyone is driving out of sight.
As I got into my car, Mom,
I knew I'd get home in one piece.
Because of the way you raised me,
So responsible and sweet..
I started to drive away, Mom,
But as I pulled out into the road,
The other car didn't see me, Mom,
And hit me like a load.
As I lay there on the pavement, Mom,
I hear the policeman say,
"The other guy is drunk," Mom,
And now I'm the one who will pay.
I'm lying here dying, Mom....
I wish you'd get here soon.
How could this happen to me, Mom?
My life just burst like a balloon..
There is blood all around me, Mom,
And most of it is mine.
I hear the medic say, Mom,
I'll die in a short time.
I just wanted to tell you, Mom,
I swear I didn't drink.
It was the others, Mom.
The others didn't think.
He was probably at the same party as I.
The only difference is, he drank
And I will die.
Why do people drink, Mom?
It can ruin your whole life.
I'm feeling sharp pains now.
Pains just like a knife.
The guy who hit me is walking, Mom,
And I don't think it's fair.
I'm lying here dying
And all he can do is stare.
Tell my brother not to cry, Mom.
Tell Daddy to be brave.
And when I go to heaven, Mom,
Put "GOOD BOY " on my grave.
Someone should have told him, Mom,
Not to drink and drive.
If only they had told him, Mom,
I would still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter, Mom.
I'm becoming very scared.
Please don't cry for me, Mom.
When I needed you, you were always there.
I have one last question, Mom.
Before I say good bye.
I didn't drink and drive,
So why am I the one to die!!

What if I had never let you go!!

Now that I'm no longer with you,
Now that you have left for good,
How things would have been, I want to know,
What if I had never let you go?

The lonely walks that I take,
The gloomy sunsets I see,
Would they have been the same
Had I been with thee?

The smell of fading flowers,
Solitary scenery and that nature's show,
Do you think would have been so dull
If I had never let you go?

Do you think the smile of that little girl
Would have made me feel so low,
I'm not able to understand,
And these things I want to know.

Morning dew, high mountains,
Give me the feeling of being so lonely,
In spite of being so far,
I feel you are the one and only.

It was you who gave me strength when I was low,
And it was you who reigned supreme,
That's because you were the answer,
To all the prayers I plead and all my dreams.

Lonely walks, gloomy sunsets, smelly flowers;
Morning dew, little girl's smile, and gentle showers,
Would have still brought a smile I know,
If only I had never let you go.

           Dedicated to a long lost love!!!